My 5 new favourite people in the world right now, Big Bang, has made a comeback after 3 years of hiatus as a group in the K-Pop world. (Note: For those who do not know how K-Pop world works – which I did not and only learned 5 months into loving these 5 dorks – 3 years is long for a group to not release music together.)

Big Bang indeed made a huge bang into the music scene by releasing not just one song but TWO songs – “Loser” and “Bae Bae” – as a gift for their fans, lovingly named VIPs, who have waited patiently for them.

In less than 24 hours, both videos have reached more than 1 million views. In fact, “Loser” is now viewed more than 4 million times while “Bae Bae” has crossed the 3 million mark.

“Loser” is something that I honestly did not expect them to come back with – a very mellow and sad song. But after watching the video and reading the translated lyrics, I now understand why.

“Loser” is most likely a song that I felt is closely related to each of them – something each of these guys have struggled with in their life.

When I first heard the song and knowing that G-Dragon wrote it, I did hear a hint of being lost coming from him, without even reading the translated lyrics. I had that vibe coming from him and this is only within 5 months of knowing these guys. Fame has got to him and not in a way that Hollywood did to some child actors. What I think he mostly felt was that huge burden to give the very best to his fans and everyone else. He is a perfectionist and being someone who is a perfectionist as well, you tend to beat yourself up the most even though you did absolutely nothing wrong. You will come out feeling not knowing what to do and just more lonely than ever because you think no one will understand – not because you tell them but because you don’t, thinking that you will be a burden to them. As a perfectionist, you do not want to be a burden to anyone because that does not sound perfect, does it?

Taeyang’s part in the video is actually one of the most moving ones – it seems that he lost faith in himself and possibly faith itself. For someone who is as popular as he is, one would have thought that he would be all high and mighty. But if you watch him in interviews and variety shows, this man is very down-to-earth and just want the simplest things in life – having a strong faith. Losing it means losing a big part of himself. And his scenes certainly showed that he felt that he had lost that part of himself and he felt literally in the dumps. The part when he jumped off from the roof and laid in the middle of the cross with the words “Sin will find you”, that hurts a lot to me, especially if he thinks that what he’s doing is leading him to the wrong path.

Daesung’s is another emotionally moving ones and this is what I feel some people out there, especially the young ones, can relate to – bullying. Teen suicides are on the rise, not just in the US but all over the world, and one of the reasons that has been stated in the media plenty of times are bullying. The scenes of him being punched and kicked and then trying to cover it up and fight back but eventually still lost are heart-wrenching. I do not know if Daesung was bullied before so that is something I cannot answer. However, I took it another way – he mentioned that he internalized a lot of things. There was a show that they did where Taeyang, T.O.P, G-Dragon and Seungri mentioned they did not know much about him even though he was the one they would turn to for advice or help and it was something that bothered them. It did show when Daesung had a scandal and he said he locked himself up in his room for weeks, no matter how much the other four tried to reach out to him. The scene when someone covered his wounds up and him trying to fight back showed that part of him, I feel – him trying to not show his pain to the world and showing him strong even though he did not feel that way.

The ones I am struggling to understand how it relates to them personally are T.O.P’s and Seungri’s.

For the first time, I saw T.O.P in a sexy scene with a bikini-clad woman. Maybe because of that, I could not get past the rest of the scenes but there was art involved and him walking bloodied and battered out on the streets, crying. I also did get a sense of loss coming from him in these scenes. But I still do not know if it has anything to do with him personally. This man is as private as Daesung and only recently did he get himself an Instagram and showed his fans a side of him we never knew. And only recently did I know he is studying in university and most likely in art. So, even though I do not know what his scenes got to do with T.O.P personally, these scenes still exude the very thing that’s about the song – a loser – and T.O.P might have felt it at some point in his life.

I struggled less with Seungri. I did get the feeling of jealousy but also having no faith in love from his scenes but again, I do not know how this relates to him personally but maybe he felt that way and that’s what’s great about this video – showing something that fans rarely ever knew about. Seungri is the maknae of the group and I swear I felt this man is always happy-go-lucky. From this video, apparently not. He does not feel loved even though he gave a lot of it to the world. This is the one that I wish I’m wrong in because this is really sad if he does feel that way. If so, I just hope the fans will know what to do now.

But you know what I love about the video? The ending. Each of them struggled, suffered and went through hell but at the end of the day, they come out stronger than ever and they, pun intended, MADE it.

Compared to “Loser”, “Bae Bae” is mind-blowingly weird.

If “Loser” is meaningful, this one is the exact opposite of that. This video exudes sex. That’s it. That’s the video: Sex.

If you think that it means there are a lot of sex scenes, you’re wrong. The video is full of euphemisms of sex without showing the actual act of sex and that’s beautifully clever but still weird.

The images of flowers covering vaginas, flowers that look like vaginas,  T.O.P injecting white fluid onto a woman’s face while both showed facial expressions of possibly reaching orgasm (in separate scenes) and a picture of a baby coming out after that, and finally the guys peeking under the women’s hanbok and smiling towards the camera. If those are not about sex, I don’t know what else they could do to show that. Oh right the actual act of sex itself then.

But the thing that makes it really beautiful is that it’s not in-your-face and harsh. It’s actually really colourful, fun and happy.

The ironic thing is that the song is sweet – at least from what I’ve read of the translated lyrics. I don’t infer it as about sex, really. It has mentions of the girl being eternally beautiful and not fade away. Some might take it the wrong way and go: “That’s just wrong to want a girl to be eternally beautiful and look 25 all through her life.” But remember, beauty is in the eye of the beholder. She could be 70 and if these guys think that she’s beautiful and 25 in their eyes, then so be it.

What’s similar with “Loser” is the ending, which is again what I love about this video – all 5 of them looking at the camera and smiling. It’s absolutely adorable.

(Credit to tumblr user tabi-dreamer)

All in all, I love these two videos. Song-wise, I personally prefer “Bae Bae” because I love these kind of slow jamming beats but “Loser” is my new favourite cry-in-the-shower song.

Love it or hate it? Absolutely love them.